I was blessed to have a strong woman to watch and learn from everyday in my house when I was younger. For a big part of my life I was able to have both grandmothers active in my life as well. Many aunts, cousins, church women, school leaders and friends of the female persuasion.
Lately my world has been shaken to its core, some would say it was an awakening if you will. It forced me to look at what I want, how do I want people to have control of my life, and how will I allow people to affect my life with out my say. It is always hard when you are in the fog of the earthquake to see how this will make you stronger.
The saying time will heal everything is so true. It has amazed me how one night sleep will make things clearer. The more time I have had the more determined I get, the more clearer I am about myself, the stronger my foundation gets.
As I am enjoying an afternoon in my house by myself, little one asleep and the other boys out and about. I go to the CD shelf and look for some reinforcement in music that always heals me and makes me stronger. Females of choice today are Mary J. Blige, Erykah Badu, Kelly Clarkson, Kina and India Arie. Amazing women and journey's that we have are lucky enough to hear through their music.
And it makes me realize even though my foundation was shaken, it did not break, crack or even chip. The reason it is so strong is because of the reinforcement from every woman that has been involved in my life, especially the one that I used to watch everyday. It might not be every day that I watch her now but it is more than she realizes. For these women I am thankful because I would not be the woman I am with out them!
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